A kind cousin reminded me the other day that I had a blog... and it had been a while since I have updated. I had no idea that people I knew actually read this thing. Thanks for the smile beautiful.
"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:1-5
He is saying, I will heal you.
Today was the first day of school, not of my schooling but for my kiddoes. The 656 kiddoes that I pour my heart into on a regular basis. I missed them and their faces. God has spent this summer restoring so much of my heart and my body that I feel the need to over flow into others. As my pastor says, "[I've] spent enough time soaking."
He is saying, I am healing you.
God has done a great work in me this summer taking me from a broken hearted, empty armed momma to a strong mother whose arms are open to anyone who needs them. He has shown me that through my own weakness, He makes me strong. Im calmer, more patient, quieter, softer, and my view is a world of different than it was before. Some have asked me if I have changed or when I will be back to my old self. I tell them, "Yes, I have changed and the old Katlyn will never be back and its for the better." The things that matter in life are far more prominent than they were before. The petty things dont matter as much. I have also become better at seaking his guidance through prayer than before. The instant my heart started to hurt at work today, I prayed for him to heal. The instant I began worrying about my grandmother-in-law, I prayed for him to deal. The instant fear set in when something happened to one of the kiddoes, I prayed for him to find. I learned that I cant do it anymore.
He said, I have healed you.
Bring me still even closer Lord. No matter what is to come I know that you are right there beside me and when I am unable to walk you carry me. He has sent me on a mission. My mission is right here, right now. These kids are my mission. They are the generation coming up and are able to change the world for the better... or the worse. They are a generation that needs Christ and needs hope. They are a generation that needs healing from the pain their parent generations have caused. They are a generation that God has commanded us to take care of. God calls us to take care of his. Millions of children all over the world need us. I cant take them all in and care for all of them myself. But I can take the ones in right here right now and care for them. My mission is on the home-front. They are Gods children and it is my only choice.
He said, now I will use you to heal.
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39